two funerals -- same day

What joy i look at this little post at Okayplayer and this other one, and they are hard to look at because u will either get accused of being insensitive or u realize how many people do relate to grief and loss, or have thought of taking their own life at one time or another.

But my real point correlates with the grief and loss post. i doubt i will cry come Saturday at the two funerals i must attend. (K's mother's is at 9 am and Brother S (cancer) is at 10 am.) Maybe it's years of attending funerals of family and others who i had no real attachment or did not "know"; Or maybe, i have learned to desensitize myself to death. There have been times where i have been overwhelmed by the visual grief of family members at funeral, and i get a little teary-eyed.

i know the Christian Haitian folk will be tearing dramatically that day, and i will want to leave ASAP. I feel that i am not cold

On Monday after showing up at Baptiste's studio again in the morning, and once again finding him and his wife not back from vacation. i soaked up the abnormal hot weather and walked up Broadway eyeing the beauty around -- *wink, wink*.