My mother can be a tad bit annoying at times with her "u need someone in ur life" rhetoric. Especially when she sees me out of it.
If only she could understand when i say to her that having someone is not going to be what makes u truly happy. But she doesn't seem to get it and calls it abnormal. Or maybe i should juts talk about to women that have been part of my life, maybe that will make her feel better.

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But all in all it's so draining to have people in ur life, friends, family or interests. The interests seem the toughest for me. In the past year i have met a lot of interesting folks (aka women); Some i'd like to know better, some i really don't need in my life, and some that can turn out to be good friends. But i feel like sometimes my awkwardness and quirks throws off some, while the others who take the time out, find out what i am really about, and stick around. (Run-on sentences really are ur friends.)


I am learning a lot about balance and taking into account how i may come off -- which is at times is rude and abrasive. However, i do not behave this way to make people mad. I am honest to a fault-- at least that's what i want to believe. Which on the flip side means I am not a push over despite being soft spoken.

But then a lady friend has called me arrogant. Then this all maybe boils down to perceptions. And in essence i really have no control over what a woman sees me, she shall see what she needs to see. I just hope that what is seen is well-informed and the "Rich" that i want them to see is genuine.

I guess "knowing Rich" requires patience.