I have been working on my Blackout experience for the past couple of days but i will put it up when i get through with it.

This weekend I told koku (yes a woman) i need a break from hanging around and talking with my female "friends". The gender differences can come out when u least expected and ur like "ehh." Being around my male peeps, recently has made me realize that i do need some of that bonding-- it's been so long.

And that being around women that are only friends has frustrated me so, especially ones that i didn't have friendships with in the beginning. It reminds me of how i have fared so poorly in the dating/relationship department.

And a single guy doesn't always wanna hear women and their men woos, especially if he sees himself as a good catch. Nor does a single guy like to hear other dudes remark about how they always see him with some pretty girl who he is not dealing with in any other way but a friendship or "just cool."

I stopped long ago being friends with women just in hopes of them seeing i was interested in them. So it's not that. I think most of my friendships are pretty platonic.

I dunno just venting.