Moses: "To promised land of tatoos"

lovely last night or early this morning i decided to venture out to Stone soup's temporary spot ( they lost 13 little devils) and realized how annoyed i was. not sad or upset anymore but more like i got dismissed by two women in two weeks.

and one of them couldn't even come out and say that they weren't interested. The other one i call DM has been the object of my frustration and needless to say we aren't' speaking right now because of the fact that i know and i made her know we can't do the friend thing. it would be unfair to me after us clicking and being intimate -- not physically juts interactions. and her choosing to go back into the past with her ex. i wish she could move on and try to get to know someone new like me. Father of my unborn children my ass.

But I'm at this same point again and i know damn well my friendships and women only work if they were platonic from the start. if not it's threading dangerous. so i don't know if i care to be friends with new person who i haven't actually dated. i just don't think she is open enough for me to feel comfy enough to interact with. and i hate being bombarded with smoking. but it all goes back to her not being able to just say she wasn't interested when i made advances before. were adults just be mature. now she may be out a good friend cause i don't play that.

my ego is very cracked at the moment or is it my confidence? So i don't give a darn about a lot of the new folks that have entered my life. they need to earn my caring, cause sometimes when you care on a basic level they don't appreciate it or realize that they should.