Weddings, families plus fear of attachments

She's having a Baby!

Tonite as I prepare to go into the office tomorrow, I have some things on me head -- but nothing in the social or political realm.

On a side note, I picked my aunt and cousin from the airport today, who I haven't seen since my one and only trip to Miami in 1986. My cousin came with her son who has hair almost like mine. I wonder whether she will chop it off like most do once the kid gets past that 3 year-old period.

When the boy first saw me he said in a low voice "stupid." and my cousin grinned. It was slightly cute, but stupid isn't so great of a word to be called, but alas he's an only child. Anyhow they were all glad to see me, but the first thing my cousin said to my aunt was, "look his feet go in just like everyone else in the family."

Then I drove them Brooklyn where they will be staying with my Gary's family.

But alas family is streaming into to town for my cousin Gary's big day Monday. And sadly his Best Man has not been performing his duties which include a bachelor night.

My friend suggested-- in regards to one thing on my mind-- communicating my fear of "attachment" to someone new in my life. I think some people know my fear of letting people in, cause of my past experience of being burnt. So it's a big deal when I let someone in. But on the same coin when I let someone in, that means I may being growing really fond of them.

SO the question will or won't I communicate this, with the possibility of it coming off like I wanna pull back even though I want to grow more with whatever it is we have going on. But I'm screwed once they read my blog, so who really cares.

Going Serious

i'm sure all my musing on my personal life and such are quite intriguing, but i think i'm for the next few weeks turn to making some points on poltics, history, social ish. who knwos where this might go.

Puss in Boots

Just came back from partaking of a sundae at Baskins Robbins and trying out one the flavors of the month in conjunction with the Shrek @ film. Oddly enough when I asked for one of the flavors -- Puss in Boots Chocolate Mousse -- I kept laughing. And my younger cousin who I dragged with me grinned while she text messaged some friend of hers. Teenagers!! But I am closer to her then her brother who is his twenties (I find him a bit "young" at times)-- story of my life.

But this Saturday was very quickly. I didn't leave the house till after nine, and proceeded to go to my aunt's in element. For all intentions I tend to go there cause they are the relatives that I know I'll find around on a Saturday night. While my 22 year cousin chilled in his room downstairs waiting for his lady, I spoke with his sister and her parents about my other cousin's Gary and his impending wedding on Memorial Day. Strangely enough, my aunt has learned to stop asking me about my "girlfriend" which I don't think has ever really existed.

But this past week has been really uneventful, I worked on only three things for Complex, and spent time getting film developed, etc. But I saw someone really cool twice this week, including Friday. And Friday is a whole nother post altogether for me. *wide grin*

But I believe I should start pushing for more photography after these press photos I shot for this upcoming emcee.

I'm a dead beat friend

Hey all the readers of this blog..I have been such a deadbeat friend it's ridiculous...and skimming over my dear friends blog..I've missed nothing and i've missed everything...Plus I'm jealous of his blog..so there...ha So to Rich---> Hiya Giant :) Hope this makes ya day !!!! Now tell me how i can get a pic in my profile.....haahhaha

Screw this angel

Joss whedon claimed he would never leave his series' on cliffhangers.

WTF
This is what i get
WEsley dies. And the fate of the survivors is left hanging as they face off against wolfram & Hart's demon army and a dragon. And then we get a

THANK YOU.

Flowers in an Irish Pub

Well my weekend was busy -- Children's museum with my goddaughter; Photo shoot with an upcoming MC by the name of Che Grand and i got to use my polaroid back; hung out purely accidentally with the BK crew; DVDs and ice cream with PHD lady.

But also Monday as an extension of my weekend was probably one of nicest for time spent with someone. While i suffered in an unexpectedly cold evening with only two short sleeve shirts on my person, we walked around, hit up two bars, saw Eternal Sunshine (a second tiem for me), and ate. anyone u cna spend a day with and not get tired of is somewhat special.

and the biggest surprise was a flower from that person at the end of the night. i'm not sure how i reacted in her eyes. maybe i blushed, who knows. but i think i tried to be all cool about it and ish.

So it is back to the grind of fact checking for Complex. Now instead of an hourly rate i ma getting a flat fee for my work, which isn't so bad. I hope i can still work for them when i go to school and end up working for my tution.

Iraq and getting old

I had an annoying thought one of these early mornings where i was slightly awake but couldn't go back to sleep. Someday i will be old and not be able to do the things i used to be able to do.

Anyway more pleasant thoughts. i have been ignoring much of the war "news"-- heck i ignore most mainstream news. SO all these recent talk of prisoner abuse has and the beheading that occurred this week have been news to me.

I am very apathetic. I think the US should have left once they captured saddam. But of course their motives are not honorable. The Iraqis don't want you there any longer and the death toll on both sides continue to rise. You need to let them handle their new poltical situation. Meanwhile. i watch in horror as my gas prices go up beyond 2 dollars a gallon.

But i think i'll stick to reading my People's History of the United States" for a more accurate history of America's actions throughout history - well at least a differnt view of it.

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Meeting women Part 1/ Neil and D get Hitched Finally

I is growing up

I was called gorgeous last week by this tall , attractive, amply-breasted woman. How nice is that. Never got that compliment before. LOL

Yes but more importantly, I have been a better streak in meeting women that are "date" material. As opposed to say the sporadic date here and there I have met more than one female, each with their own unique personality -- another good thing.

But I doubt very much I'll be "pimp" status (the quotes represent political correctness), perhaps for my lack of begin able to focus so much energy in the pursuit of women and/or the superficial things they can provide. I also don't want to jinx things and watch them slowly disintegrate. It's a phenomenan I have witnessed too many times.

But like Aisha said "U gotta break your dating patterns and stop being attracted to the same people if they're not working out." Well those weren't her exact words, but u get my drift.

I notice Sometimes I seem to be addressing u the reader and other times I am having a dialogue with myself on this weblog. Freaky ant it.

Neil and D finally got married this past weekend. A meeting in a DC mall 5+ years ago and they managed to end up in NY together and at the same employer. It was destined to be. I hung with some folks I haven't hung out with in a minute including my first co-worker in the "real world" Greg. They served no dinner at the reception so we ended up at an Indian spot in Jackson Heights. I obviously don't hang out in Queens anymore, because it was so foreign to me, and i had no sense of direction. But my stomach wasn't happy with me that Saturday night.

Question to all of you who read this.

DO YOU THINK I SHOULD SELL PRINTS on this very site and would you purchase them?

Such as

or

or


i mean i have a lot more that i haven't printed.

Let me know yall...

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Esthero's New Song and the Controversy that may be

Anyhow it seems my postign of Esthero's new song on the Okayplayer website has sparked speculation about who she is dissing and she even popped up in the thread to clear some things up.

and is being discussed on JSmooth's site Hip Hop Music

And for those who care i had created a little Esthero page years ago, and it terribly needs to be updated:
Esthero Page

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