Life as it is

Esthero is out. Got pick up her new album Wikked Lil' Grrrls. Her label Reprise has done zero promotion for the album. And Andre 3000 was taken off the final version. Please support
www.esthero.net/ or www.nearlycivilized.com/
and my myspace group: http://groups.myspace.com/esthero

I didn't get a teaching position for the fall at my school. Committee felt unsure about giving me a placement. Which doesn't surprise I was ambivalent about the whole process last semester. Teaching is not on my top list of things to accomplish in life but it is something I have wanted to try if not for the experience but at least to something to fall back. I was told I could appeal, but I don't even know if I really want to. They say it's perfect for writers to teach while they write but it's not the only means.

I finally got paid by United Way so I'm not broke for the time being and maybe I can fully be involved in this weekend's film shoot. Three nights in a row in the BX. Who thought I 3 minute fight sequence could require so much work. Grant it special effects and props are involved.

They want me to do one of the eulogies for my cousin and i don't want to do it. I remember things about him growing up then family things got int the way and he moved to Long island. I remember good thinsg about him but i know very little about him because of how my uncle handled him and his family situations. but most of all i hate speaking in front of people. but to understand that part of my family has a weird hsitory with the rest of us and messy one at that.