abusing the environment

other thoughts in my head. with all the hurricane devastation (which has hurt the carribean many times over including haiti but that's not an issue to the us of course) and the rising oil prices we can't keep treating the enviroment like shit and expect it to treat us right. oil is not the only fuel out there and there are other resuable fuels out there that are safer for the environment. i'm not a tree hugger or anything.

Reading that the removal of wetlands along the shores is oen of the main reason for all the devastation is disturbing. very similar to the removal of the trees in Haiti which has made flooding a regular occurence. but money talks and since the Bush family made it's riches off of oil i doubt our Presiden is thinking about alternatives.


and the anit-rape condom that has been developed in South Africa

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there's a new kid on the block.

Last.fm

it let's u create a profile and a plugin in links to ur music player on ur computer and uploads to info to whatever track ur listening to ur page and collects the info and automatically links u to people with similar tastes and let's u listen to their music.

Living personal life in fear because of the uncontrollable

Or as I like to call it: "If I can't control it then I ain't gonna mess with" syndrome

Most of us are guilty of it, especially when it comes to matters of the heart-- I have and still have been (boy that was grammatically incorrect)

The thoughts that go in your head: "I'm getting too attached to her/him, I don't know about this." or "What if I leave myself open and then get hurt badly?" or "this is too good to be true."

As much as I have advised people to ignore the fear and go for it, I have not been able to follow my own advice. The hardest part for me has been embracing how I feel. Up until Monday I was on my usual moping , sulking pattern. I even spoke candidly with someone I used to deal with who appreciated my honesty not just in what I was revealing recently in my blog, but also my tone. Which led to me divulging why I acted the way I did when I was with her.

But the keywords coming from everyone I have confided in seems to be embrace how I'm feeling right now and don't feel foolish for keeping hopes up or think that I'm being unrealistic. That I need to process everything in the way that works for me whether I'm crying or beating up someone (that's a joke). Just concentrate on what I need to concentrate on. Hurt takes time heal. And I will admit I tend to expect things not turn out the way I want them to. But I have been proven wrong before so I hope I get proven wrong this time around. I think I'm gonna be whining on here for a while.

My first class of the semester is in less then an hour and it feels comfy to be back working in the public relations office, as well as the consistent paycheck that comes with it. So here I sit in my "office" killing time and trying to sneak some Xeroxes of a short I have to hand in on Thursday.

This world red hot

The irony of someone yelling that there was suicide bomber in crowd of pilgrims heading to the Kadhimiya mosque in northern Baghdad and that resulting in a stampede killing 648 people. That this did more damage then a suicide bomber could ever is where the irony lays.

from CNN: 648 dead in Baghdad stampede
322 hurt as bridge railing collapses amid panic near mosque

BAGHDAD, Iraq (CNN) -- At least 648 people were killed and 322 others injured in a stampede on a Baghdad bridge after a massive Shiite religious commemoration erupted into panic Wednesday.

Most of those killed were women and children, police sources said.

Witnesses said the stampede started after someone screamed that a suicide bomber was in the crowd of pilgrims heading to the Kadhimiya mosque in northern Baghdad.

A railing on the bridge then collapsed under the crush of people, and hundreds fell to their deaths in the Tigris River about 30 meters (yards) below, CNN's Jennifer Eccleston reported.

According to police, some people were crushed to death but most drowned. Emergency crews rushed the wounded to five hospitals as relatives at the riverbank searched for their kin.

The stampede occurred at about 11:30 a.m. (3:30 a.m. EDT) near the mosque, where pilgrims were gathered to commemorate the martyrdom of Imam Moussa al-Khadhem, a prominent figure in Shiite history.

He is buried at the Kadhimiya mosque, the largest Shiite mosque in the capital.

Prime Minister Ibrahim al-Jaafari announced a three-day mourning period, and President Jalal Talabani said the stampede "will leave a scar in our souls and will be remembered with those who died in the result of terror acts."

The incident took place three hours after a mortar attack near the same mosque killed seven people and wounded 36 others, police said.

The U.S. military said helicopter crews saw insurgents "firing rockets and mortars that landed near a mosque," causing "several impacts" on the mosque.

The helicopter crews took aim at the insurgents, and coalition ground units raced to the area and searched for those responsible for the attack.

"At the suspected point of origin, coalition forces discovered evidence of a tube used for launching rockets," the military said, adding that more than a dozen people were detained for questioning.

The attack didn't stop pilgrims from continuing their rituals, marked in part by self-flagellation and chest-thumping in their walk to the shrine in the hours before the stampede.
Air strikes kill 7 militants

On Tuesday, the U.S. Marines told CNN that air strikes flattened insurgent safe houses used by militants linked to al Qaeda in western Iraq.

The air attacks near the Syrian border killed at least seven militants, the 2nd Marine Expeditionary Force said.

A top operative called Abu Islam was among the dead, the force said.

Police in Baghdad reported that 56 civilians were killed in the strikes.

They said police contacts in the region told them 40 civilians died in one house and 16 in another. Two children survived, they added.

A U.S. military spokesman said he had no specifics yet on the strike.

Lt. Col. Steve Boylan of the Coalition Press Information Center said: "We target only military targets and take precautions on any type of civilian casualties on all of our operations."

CNN could not independently verify the report of civilian deaths.

The three air strikes were ordered on Husayba and Karabila, near Qaim, after tips were received, officials told CNN.

Four 500-pound bombs were dropped on a house outside Husayba in the first raid at 6:20 a.m. (10:20 p.m. Monday ET), a statement said.

Two more bombs were later dropped on a house the Marines said was occupied by Abu Islam.

In the third attack, two bombs were aimed at a house in Karabila where militants sought refuge after the first strike, the statement said.

The attacks were the latest combat in continued hostilities reported in the border region.

On Friday, Marine planes pounded a suspected safe house in Husayba where about 50 insurgents were said to be staying, the day after three U.S. soldiers died in a roadside bombing in the town.
U.S. pilot killed

A U.S. pilot was killed and a second was wounded when a U.S. helicopter was hit by small-arms fire in northern Iraq, a military spokesman said.

The attack on the UH-58 Kiowa Warrior helicopter came while it was flying over Tal Afar.

The aircraft went down, but the wounded pilot was able to get the helicopter airborne again and left the immediate area.

The number of U.S. troops killed in the Iraq war stands at 1,878.

Violence continues in Iraq as politicians try to move forward with the constitutional process.

In separate incidents Monday, gunmen assassinated the brother of the former governor of Baghdad and an official assigned to the Iraqi Elections Commission. (Full story)

The killings came a day after Iraq's constitutional committee approved a final draft of the Iraqi constitution and put it before the National Assembly, despite the rejection of Sunni Arab leaders. (Full story)

It will go to the Iraqi people, who will vote by October 15.

CNN's Jennifer Eccleston, Kianne Sadeq, Cal Perry, Enes Dulami and Mohammed Tawfeeq contributed to this story.

Copyright 2005 CNN. All rights reserved.This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten, or redistributed. Associated Press contributed to this report.

just so i don't look llike i don't know what else is going down

Thank Goodness i don't drive any longer

Wow basically New Orleans is no more. Count ur blessings

Paris, African immigrants, and fires are not mixing well :(

Chavez is really trying to push the U.S.'s buttons


DR is not being a good neighbor to Haiti

Now since "we" being so candid here

even though it's not realistic I hope I get a second chance someday.

I guess letting out yesterday was a good thing. I didn't have an urge to to do it today. I went to work at my school then ended up having lunch with Koku who is still getting used to NY. Oh she notices all the difference in NYC then all the other places she has lived or been to. And seems fascinated by Brooklyn, where she is living.

We ate at Brooklyn Moon (their $5.00 Anti-Bush menu hit the spot but wasn't filling) then she went to pick up a boatload of ramen noodles, which a friend had gotten supper cheap. And she was surprised that there was a Target downtown.

Wednesday I have my first class of the semester: Urban Literature
described as: For most New Yorkers, and for countless others as well, September 11, 2001 was a transforming experience which drastically altered our views of our city, our world and our place in it. Jonathan Safran Foer's Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close is inspired by that day and is the starting point of our course. We will explore the role of New York and other cities as hubs of culture and sensibility. We will consider the ways that the city serves as projection of a historical moment's aspirations, fears and values. Our readings will range from the early modern period to our own. Some of our texts will be excerpts from longer works (such Jonathan Swift's Gulliver's Travels Charles Dickens' Dickens' Hard Times, Walter Benjamin's Arcades Project and Alfred Doblin's Alexanderplatz ) while Franz Kafka's The Castle, Edith Wharton's House of Mirth and James Baldwin's Go Tell It on the Mountain will be read in their entirety.

Students will write three short papers(about 750 words each) and one long paper (of about 1500 words). They can expect to view a film in class and may also be assigned a field trip to an exhibit at a major city resource. A final examination completes the course.

I hope I make it through this semester with all the changes that may be going down for me

boy this blog is getting a tad bit too open

When things were simpler

LOL
Just had another good cry after my dad told me, "If I want to talk about anything just come to him." Then I lost it again in the bathroom. But a male friend told me sometimes you gotta do it especially when you hold so much in.

Folks reading must think I’m a wuss right now. LOL

But I think I should have cried in 2000 when I got hurt really bad by a woman. Cause it took me so long to let go of how she had treated me. And it has spilled over into other "relationships" I have almost had.

Last time I cried had involved that same woman two years later and me getting lost on my way to Coney Island when the event turned out to be in fort Greene. This was back when I was still getting to know Brooklyn. All I remember is losing it when I was driving aimlessly around and being pissed off at my life and pissed of at her for trying to be cool with me after dumping me the way she did.

I hadn't cried since then, maybe teary-eyed but not flat out cried. And I probably won’t talk about what happened this time around in detail because it wasn’t so much negative situation just a confusing one with a lot of mixed signals and things to should have been expressed but weren't expressed.


i am so missing my car now that my commute to school took me two hours. please Lord let me find a place by the end of September

The Secret Creative Project

A few weeks ago I got a spark of inspiration to get a bunch of creative types to work on a multi-faceted project. I spoke with many I trusted and respected and gave them time to give me a yes or no. And received a lot of yeses I did. However I am feeling selfish: 1 : concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself : seeking or concentrating on one's own advantage, pleasure, or well-being without regard for others
2 : arising from concern with one's own welfare or advantage in disregard of others

and my motivation and my head are elsewhere right at this moment. I feel like I won't continue with it until one of the participants can and will come back to the fold. Yet that's holding me and everyone else back. I have never been a leader and I don't know if I ma strong enough to be one.


And one more thing: honesty was never really made to make ur life easier or happier just made to make ur soul more free.

this morning finally

i let my teary eyes cry. i think it was a result of a lot of things i have kept bottled up inside. i realy always try hard not to cry but i need to do this. i'm sad about what happened but it somethign to needed to happen. that's what i need to accept right now. *rubs eyes* i have go to my job at school now. it's the first day and Tuesday will be my first day of class.

teary eyes son

This is pathetic. I’m sitting on a sofa in Costco waiting for Steve to find out if they have anymore queen-size mattresses, and I am zoning out on my iPod since it’s taking hella long for them to find out. And I got a little teary-eyed again. I hope this doesn’t go on all week- it’s my first week back at school for classes and for work. This is wack. Time for me to find a really good set of diversions to keep my mind off things.

But on a lighter note, I hope I have lots of moving karma cause I have helped a lot of folks move. So when it’s my turn there better be a line around the corner. And Steve better be on it.

why we write in blogs

Look out for my friend Ferentz Lafargue who will be dropping his first book next year.

I guess maintaining a web journal is somewhat therapeutic. Or just writing out feelings in views in general. But why do it in a place where anyone can be a voyeur. I think it’s because deep down us web loggers want people to view our thoughts that we otherwise might not be willing to voice face to face or in front of a crowd.

But sometimes I think my gaps without writing something are a result of having nothing to say that isn’t redundant or touching. Even though the emails and comments seem to say the opposite.

It looks like I will be writing a lot more in this for the moment. Partially because I need to and secretly I want certain people to know how I will be/am doing. What sucks is that having a blog means people have the advantage of knowing what’s up with you without having to speak to you, but not necessarily vice versa.

Currently listening to

this rare gem that i forgot about

Everything by Erykah Badu featuring Common

Havana and cheers up

In hopes of cheering myself up on Friday I took a friend’s offer to hang out in the city after dropping off my mother’s film at my spot by F.I.T.

I eneded up with her at Washington Square and babbling about what’s makes you grown up and fortunately I decided to call Steve who was on his way to pick up his wife and eat at this Cuban spot by Union Square called Havana Central.

So we joined them and the food and mojito was quite dandy. Steve alerted me that they found an apartment in East Flatbush and are moving this weekend. Hopefully, it will be my turn next.

the many mooods of me

a sample of what's on my ipod

i have one or two tracks only for some albums

Monoaural Red Hot + Riot
Talib Kweli The Beautiful Mixtape Vol2
mj cole cut to the chase
Talib Kweli The Beautiful Mixtape Vol. 2
Quincy Jones & Bill Cosby The New Mixes Vol.1
SA-RA Presents... Dark Matter & Pornography Mixtape Vol. 30"
bubba sparxxx Dj_Drama_And_Aphilliates_Present Got That Purple
Count Bass-D Dwight Spitz
MF Doom and Madlib Are MadVillain
Esthero Wikked Lil' Grrrls
Marvin Gaye I Want You
Jon Brion I Heart Huckabees
Sa-Ra Creative Partners Unreleased
Devin The Dude Just Tryin' Ta Live
Koushik Be With
The Ohio Players Strictly Breaks-Pete Treats Vi
Qool DJ Marv Native Tongue Classics Vol. 2
Sa-Ra Creative Partners Unreleased2
Badly Drawn Boy About A Boy
Roots Manuva Run Come Save Me
MONDO GROSSO MG4
Kanye West Late Registration
Wyclef Jean The Carnival
Cam'ron Purple Haze
J-Boogie J.Boogie's Dubtronic Science
Fela Kuti The underground spiritual game mixed by chief xcel
Georgia Anne Muldrow Worth No Things
Kanye West Freshmen Adjustment
Madlib Shades Of Blue
Plant Life Return of Jack Splash
The Game The Documentary
Micatone Is You is
DKD Future Rage
Ludacris Chicken -N- Beer
The Platinum Pied Pipers Triple P
Ge-Ology Ge-Ology Plays
RJD2 Deadringer
Beat Junkies Soundbombing II
Usher Usher
9th Wonder Invented the Remix
J-88 (Slum Village) Best Kept Secret
Dr. Dre 2001
Esthero Breath From Another
Marvin Gaye Here, My Dear
A Tribe Called Quest Midnight Marauders
Little Brother The Listening
Badly Drawn Boy The Hour Of The Bewilderbeast
The Mars Volta Frances The Mute
O.C. - Starchild (Japanese Imp Starchild (Japanese version)
De La Soul Aoi-Bionix Retail
MF Doom MM Food-(Explicit Retail)
Dwight Trible Living Water
Slum Village Fantastic Vol. 1
Wale Oyejide One Day... Everything Changed
Leela James A Change Is Gonna Come
roísín murphy ruby blue
Jeremy Ellis Jeremy Ellis- Lotus Blooms
Fishbone Chim Chim's Badass Revenge
Beanie Sigel The B.Coming
Sven Libaek The Life Aquatic With Steve Zissou
Scarface The Fix
Esthero Esthero guest spots
Quincy Jones & Bill Cosby The Original Jam Sessions 1969 (Concord 2004)
Agent K Feed The Cat
Adriana Evans Nomadic
Tanya Morgan Sunlighting
Gorillaz Demon Days
Ludacris Chicken & Beer
United Soul Reservations
Talib Kweli Reflection Eternal
micatone nomad songs
Antonio Pinto & Ed Côrtes City Of God
Black Star Black Star
Martina Topley Bird Quixotic
Tony Touch Tape #50 - 50 Emcee Freestyles
Aya STRANGE FLOWER
Lessondary & DJ Spendtricks Lessondary Never Secondary: Volume 2 mixed by DJ Spendtricks
Yann Tiersen Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amélie Poulain
Qool DJ Marv Native Tongue Classics Vol. 1
Tony Touch Power Cypha Trilogy
Jack Herrera Retro Futuristic
Hope Sandoval & The Warm Inventions Bavarian Fruit Bread
Mad Skillz From Where???
The Eagles Hotel California
Jean Grae This Week
mj cole cut to the chase
The Mars Volta De-Loused In The Comatorium
Jill Scott Experience: Jill Scott 826+ [Live] (Disc 2)
Tiombe Lockhart Tiombe Lockhart
Streetlife Street Education
The Foundation The Foundation (Bootlegged)
Lewis Taylor The Lost Album
Dwight Trible Love Is The Answer
Common One Day It'll All Make Sense
Keziah Jones Black Orpheus
M.I.A./Diplo Piracy Funds Terrorism Volume 1
Raekwon Only Built 4 Cuban Linx
Towa Tei Future Listening!
MF Doom Since Last Week
Doves Lost Souls
AZ Final Call
Danger Doom The Mouse & The Mask
Snoop Doggy Dogg Doggystyle
Jamie Lidell Multiply (WARP131CD)
Red Hot Chili Peppers Californication
Vince Guaraldi A Boy Named Charlie Brown Soundtrack
Meshell Ndegeocello Pres The Spirit Music Jamia Dance Of The Infidel
Tony! Toni! Toné! House Of Music
Alice Russell Under The Munka Moon
Stereolab Sound-Dust
Shawn Lee's Ping Pong Orchestra Music And Rhythm
Jeremy Ellis The Lotus Blooms-(Ubiquity)
Nina Simone Pastel Blues/Let It All Out
clara hill restless times
Amy Winehouse Frank
Broken Social Scene You Forgot It in People
F.T. (Fuck That) The F Word Is Not A Curse
Artist Album
Gaelle Transient
T.I. Trap Muzik
Method Man/Redman Blackout!
Feist Let It Die
Sade Lovers Rock
Jean Grae Jeanius
*unknown artist* 07-07-2004 [f]
Stereolab Margerine Eclipse
Common Be
Silhouette Brown Silhouette Brown
Sly & Robbie Late Night Tales [UK]
Jean Grae The Bootleg Of The Bootleg
Stereolab Emperor Tomato Ketchup
Sia Colour The Small One
Nina Simone Four Women: The Nina Simone Ph
Yann Tiersen Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amelie Poulain
Wu-Tang Clan The W
Shirley Bassey James Bond
nina simone pastel blues
Kanye West Summer School (A ro0ts Compilation)
The Quantic Soul Orchestra Pushin On
Dwele Rize
Da Beatminerz Fully Loaded With Statik
Amerie vs Spymusic Untitled - 07-06-05
Feist Monarch
N*E*R*D Fly Or Die
KRS-One Return of the Boom Bap
Morcheeba The Antidote
Missy Elliott The Cookbook
Stephen Simmonds Spirit Tales
Omara Portuondo Buena Vista Social Club Presents Omara Portuondo
Ghostface Killah The Pretty Toney Album
koop waltz for koop
Von Pea Self Untitled
Ta Raach Superchocolate VLS
Jeff Buckley Grace
Alicia Keys The Diary of Alicia Keys
*unknown artist* 07-05-2004 (p)
The Roots The Tipping Point
Cibo Matto Stereo Type A
Phil Upchurch Broken Soul
Morcheeba Charango
Otis Redding Sings Soul Ballads
me'shell ndegéocello. cookie: the anthropological mixtape
Sa-Ra Creative Partners Informal Introduction
*unknown artist* 07-03-2004 (k)
Lewis Taylor Stoned Part II
Snoop Dogg R and G (Rhythm and gangsta) T
Ras Kass J-Grand 74 Min of Funk Vol 7
50 Cent The Massacre
De La Soul The Grind Date
Donny Hathaway Extension Of A Man
Whatnauts Underground Oldies Vol. 7
Abacus Live Mix
Mos Def Black On Both Sides
Moloko Statues
Sia Healing Is Difficult
Sa-Ra Creative Partners Deviation
Redman Doc's Da Name 2000
Scritti Politti Anomie & Bonhomie
Jamiroquai Dynamite
A Tribe Called Quest 12
Krumbsnatcha Let the Truth Be told
Jem Finally Woken
Rob Swift Sound Event
Jay-Z In My Lifetime Vol. 1
Air Talkie Walkie
GIL SCOTT HERON THE REVOLUTION WILL NOT BE TELEVISED
Various Artists 2001 A Rhyme Odyssey
Silent Poets Ninja Cuts - Funkungfusion
*unknown artist* 04-12-04 (p)
Mos Def Brown Sugar-Fine b/w Super Fin
Medeski Martin & Wood Dark Matter & Pornography Mixtape
Res How I Do
Slim Thug Already Platinum
Rahsaan Patterson After Hours-Retail
Nas Stillmatic
jolly music secret love (a view on folk compiled by jazzanova and resoul)
Grant Green Blue Breakbeats
Dwele Lost Track Of Time EP
Gorillaz Gorillaz
Everything But The Girl Adapt or Die: Ten Years of Rem
Brazilian Girls Brazilian Girls
Dwele Money Don't Mean A Thing CDM
Various Artists Verve Remixed 2
Dr. Dre The Chronicle
Kev Brown Allways VLS
Destinys Child Feat Sean Price 9th Wonder and Smif N Wessun R
Ibrahim Ferrer Buena Vista Social Club Presents Ibrahim Ferrer
Heavy Ep
Fiona Apple Extraordinary Machine
Clipse Feat. Ab-Liva & Sandman Clinton Sparks & Eminem - Ange
Nicola Conte Bossa Per Due
Coldplay Live In Paris (Olympia) 2002/08/27
Sade The Best Of Sade
Late Night Alumni HK: Stero Sushi Vs Sake (CD1)
Oi Va Voi Laughter Through Tears
Eric Roberson The Vault Vol 1
Jamiroquai Synkronized
Mint Condition The Collection (1991-1998)
J"Davey Demos
Lenny Kravitz 5
Esthero We R In Need Of A Musical Revolution E.P.
Janet Jackson
Mos Def Soundbombing
Pharoahe Monch The Mighty Pharoahe
Jamiroquai 2001 A Funk Odyssey
DJ Mitsu the Beats New Awakening
No Doubt Singles 1992-2003
Samuel Christian Feat Mos Def Black And White OST (EXPLICIT
Orgone Rewind! Vol. 4
D'angelo & the Soultronics Essence Festival Rehersals 1998
Dwele Subject
Bobby Valentino Exclusive
Eric B. & Rakim Paid in Full
Sa-Ra Creative Partners Double Dutch-BW-Death Of A Star VLS
Omar No Reason EP
John Mayer Heavier Things
Wyclef Jean Feat. Buju Banton & T-Vice Sak Pasé Presents: Welcome To Haiti Creole 101
Various Artists Fat Beats and Brastraps
Lizz Fields By Day By Night
Dwele Neo Soul Vibes Vol 13
Erykah Badu Ft Common Love Of My Life(An Ode To Hip
Tupac best of tupac
DJ Drama Purple Ribbon Entertainment: Got That Purp
John Mayer Room For Squares
Lewis Taylor stoned | Part I
Ludacris The Red Light District
*unknown artist* 04-16-04 (o)
Heiroglyphics (feat Goapele) One Big Trip
The Platinum Pied Pipers Hip Hop Love Soul
Hank Crawford Wildflower
DJ Premier Step Ya Game Up 2
Wyclef Jean The Ecleftic
Los Amigos Invisibles AREPA 3000
Hezekiah Hezekiah - Hurry Up & Wait
Steely Dan Aja
Pharell Feat. Jay-Z Frontin-(Promo CDS)
Usher Confessions
Natalie Cole Don't Look Back
The Quantic Soul Orchestra Mishaps Happening
Tony Touch The Piece Maker
Artful Dodger It's All About the Stragglers
*unknown artist* Atlantiquity
Wale Oyejide Broken Jazz 101
groove theory Sunset Park STB
The Platinum Pied Pipers Rewind! 2
Stephen Simmonds Alone f. Big L (Remix) 12 Inch
Outkast non album songs
Dwight Trible & The Life Force Trio Equipose EP
Eric Roberson The Vault Vol 1.5
No Doubt Rock Steady
Bill Withers Menagerie
Mary J. Blige Mary
Bahamadia Kollage
Eric Roberson The Vault Vol 1.5
Pharrell Feat Timbaland & Mago Sbi (Big White Spaceship) CDS
Eric Roberson Neo Soul Vibes Vol 13
Diplomats Diplomatic Immunity 2
Jamiroquai The Return Of The Space Cowboy [Japan]
Aceyalone Love and Hate
Res Maid in Manhattan
DJ Krush MiLiGHT
Mystic (Ft. Talib Kweli) The Life VLS
Natasha Bedingfield [giant step eas51645]
Common Be (Bonus Tracks)
Don't Get it Backwards State of the World
Lewis Taylor Limited Edition 2004
Nostalgia 77 The Garden
Bob Marley & The Wailers Live!
Dwele Dat New Hot 3
The Platinum Pied Pipers Various
Gwen Stefani Love. Angel. Music. Baby
J-Live Always Will Be
Esthero O.G. Bitch
Abacus io EP
Jazz Reworks The New MPS Sessions
MJ Cole Feat Tubby T When You Said
Haiti Troubadou Volume 3 Haiti Troubadou Volume 3
The Alchemist 1st Infantry
Cool Breeze East Point's Greatest Hits
Meshell Ndegeocello Cookie: The Anthropological M
The Creators The Weight
*unknown artist* 08-02-2004 [v]
Beth Orton The Other Side Of Daybreak
Sleepy Brown Barbershop 2 Soundtrack
aaliyah aaliyah (advanced full tracks)
Various Artista KonpaGold Vol. 5
Black Eyed Peas Monkey Business
Bobby Valentino Bobby Valentino-ADVANCE
Timo Maas Loud
Jay-Z Blueprint 2.1 (Bonus Tracks)
Jeremy Ellis The Lotus Blooms-(Ubiquity)
Talib Kweli Next Up! The Mixtape (Hosted b
Talib Kweli The Beautiful Struggle
Iomos Marad Deep Rooted
*unknown artist* Awaitng Your Return
Various Artists Konpa Gold Vol. 4
4hero feat. Lady Alma Osunlade presents The Yoruba
Craig Mack The Hits & Unreleased Vol. 1
The Platinum Pied Pipers Neo Soul Vibes CD1
Jill Scott Jill Scott with Friends
Konpa Gold Konpa Gold
DJ Shadow The Private Press
LL Cool J Mr. Smith
Marvin Gaye vs Marc Mac Marc Mac Reworks
Daft Punk Daft Club
John Legend Cover from the Miseducation of Lauryn Hill
Various Artists Go Deep With Julius Papp, Vol. 2
Kay-Gee's Greatest Hits
Roland Brival Osunlade presents The Yoruba
Jamiroquai Black Capricorn Day (Slum Vill
Pharrell Xtra
Dimitri from Paris Cruising Attitude
R. Kelly, Ron Isley, Aaron Hall and Charlie Wilson with Naomi Campbell Q's Jook Joint
Oi Va Voi oi va voi - refugee 12''
Orange Krush ULTIMATEBREAKS & BEATS SBR511 ™^ V.A
Tm Juke Feat Alice Russell Natural 3 Cd 1
Lizz Fields When I See Love
The Quantic Soul Orchestra Apricot Morning
Various Artists Red Hot + Blue
Four Tet Sun Drums And Soil (Sa-Ra Creative Partners "on The Move" Mix) CDS
Quincy Jones & Bill Cosby The Original Jam Sessions 1969
The Cinematic Orchestra Everyday
Micatone Is You is CDDA
Shleu Shleu Ale Ale Ale
Various Artists Serve Chilled 2
Jodeci R&B Remixes Of The Past Vol 2
Konpa Gold II KonpaGold II
Afronaut (Ft Son Del Batey) Golpe Tuyo Calinda
Q-Burns Abstract Message feat Lisa Shaw Hed Kandi - Beach House 04.03 CD1
Dwight Trible Horace
Nicola Conte Jet Sounds Revisited
Konpa Gold III The Ultimate
The Quantic Soul Orchestra Mishaps Happening (Advance)
The West Coast Rap All-Stars We're All In The Same Gang (CD
Lizz Fields Promo Only Underground Club M
Julius papp feat. Gina rene Beach House 04.02 (CD1)
N.E.R.D Provider
Fela Kuti The Best Best Of Fela Kuti (Disc 1)
Towa Tei Future Listening
Georgia Sampler
Led Zeppelin Led Zeppelin IV
pharrell feat. jay z yam 5
Digable Planets Unreleased Tracks
Freddie Hubbard Red Clay
me'shell ndegéocello. sessions @ west 54th, '96sep17
The Mars Volta Frances The Mute (Decoder)
*unknown artist* www.digital-djs.com

Blah blah and away we go

Isn’t weird how your stomach gets all funky even when ur hungry when ur in a sour mood. I remember in 2000 having stomach aches quite frequently after I got dropped by someone abruptly. It was my first time to ever feel that way and I have sort of built up this protective wall gradually since that faithful period.

I think I have learned to internalize when a woman hurts me in someway and it seems to manifest outwardly itself as distance. Frankly, I don’t really want to vent about my personal life at the moment, cause there ain’t really much to vent about. Heck what things have transpired, I’ll get over them like I did last year – in whatever way deemed necessary, healthy or not. What can one do?

But my parents seem to be supportive more or less now about my plans to move out. My mother called me today to say that there is always a room for me at home if I run into any problems. This makes me feel a little more relaxed.

And a word the question: “Is everything okay?” or it’s variations: “Is everything alright?”, “How is everything?” Don’t people get tired of asking it even when the person gives you half-hearted replies.

my new business card by the way

Still Looking

for work that is

and can see my chances at getting a place to live slipping away as my job hunt just goes nowhere

i did apply to Virgin Megastore and Banana Republic and poke to managers from both places.

birthday today, whoopie (sarcastically)

One of my crappiest summers?

This summer may probably be my worst summer. Last summer may have been hit or miss but I was working off and on as a factchecker at least yet I seemed to be really broke back then. I haven’t been working since June ended and as I a result of wasted repairs on my car, no money to travel like I wanted to. Now the car is grounded indefinitely because I’m not wasting anymore money on it. As I look over these legal proofreading docs my friend lent me I am searching my head and trying to figure out how I will pay for this class which I am told is well worth paying for.

But with job hunting comes free time, which has become devoted to making trips to a number of barnes and nobles café’s and getting addicted to iced frappuccino. It’s disturbing because I hate coffee but find myself getting their different flavors with a shot of espresso whenever I go in there. I must wean myself from it soon.

I have started three stories since July and finished none. But I have gotten more 5 pages written for each I say.

But seriously, I am really concerned about not finding a job yet5, temp, part time, or otherwise. And wish ot have something so I can find a place of my own to live.

internet is a weird place

where u cna make friends and lose them in a matter of months.
where peopel wil takee things u say in a chatting and take it the wrong way and not like you without ever meeting you.
it's so easy for people to be blunt and be "funny" online cause they don't have to call or say to ur face "i think u suck." it easy for them to be passive agressive and block you out or hide. it annoys me sometimes that there are folks who took my bluntness the wrong way and just disappeared from online knowing damn well they are still around but instead of being upfront they went passive and just blocked me. that's really mature. i'm glad to know some of the people i know from online but the others don't realize the person you missing out on. just don't expect me to greet you in person if i ever come acros you. be mature online and sincere and i will do the same with you. this goes for anyone i thought had went awol but discovered were still around and gave me nonsense excuse as to why they were avoiding me.

stop being full of it and grow up.
;)