insecurity/nervousness

I was feeling it, been feeling it for part of the day really.
It’s why being detached emotionally has come easy for me cause you don’t have to worry about feeling off as a result of your emotions for someone else. You don’t think too much about the unpredictability of things cause you are pretending you’re not thinking about them. This weekend has felt really long and I just want Monday to come already so some of these feelings can retreat from my mind. And these text messages have been making it unbearable to wait and I think I’m overdoing them.

As I do laundry tomorrow and try to work on a short story, I will anxiously wait for evening time to chime in and head to the city and meet with them. Perhaps the day will fly by like it normally does or it will take its time and torture me.

Maybe all this is simply because it feels like we are going on a first date again.